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GloHell... Florida!

Well, Sunday I had a great time at church, and Boyfriends family Holiday party...
Monday I met great people at the airport....

My sister picked me up along with a friend of hers....
Depression hit me.... as I entered my mother's house... ( The house is falling apart and I can't do anything about it... the mold... spiders... ants... termites... clutter... rust... wasps!)

My sister threw away my MICHAEL JACKSON COLLECTION WITH THRILLER JACKET AND BEAT IT JACKET!... moved all of my stuff out of my room and replaced it with hers!....

Went to church with sister Christmas Day.. Felt better for 30 minutes...
Visited family... now I am ready to go back to California...
Can't find my camera... (last time I saw it my sister was looking at the pictures I took)

Darell Jenkins who I did plays with and use to work with at Universal Studios Orlando Fla.... Father had liver cancer... his mother who was his father's caretaker... had a heart attack and died last Monday... then his father died Wednesday the same ... had both funeral the same week...

I tried to think " How can I be depressed when Darell is going through so much"....

I'm just ... I hate myself in Florida... I'm doing my best to work through it...

The only thing that brings me pleasure(besides seeing my family which I did in one day) is blogging... but now I have no camera... can't afford another one... feel like I can't breathe...


My mother is giving me pointers on loosing weight... "Hold in your hips and feel the burn"... "Jump on a trampoline everyday and drink hot water"
DID I MENTION... MY MICHAEL JACKSON COLLECTION HAS BEEN THROWN AWAY!



I have to blog at the Orlando Public Library... Cost me 2 dollars to renew my card sense I had one in 1978... Can only use wifi with a card on the second floor....

I am looking into how much it will cost me to change my ticket to leave today or tomorrow...

If you don't hear from me I have KILLED myself!